Take Jesus off the drivers seat.

I was driving last night, both kids fast asleep in the back and my church girl music on. I was in full worship mode.

I kept getting that feeling that there was something on my left, my guess is it was just reflection of the passenger seatbelt, there was no one on that seat, I knew that but I kept turning and looking that side…

So I jokingly said to myself, maybe Jesus is there next to me. Almost like a reflex I thought ‘no Jesus is supposed to be on the drivers seat of my life not the passenger’

….and that’s how this controversial blog title came from so hear me out. Continue reading Take Jesus off the drivers seat.

Advertisements

It is Finished…

It’s been a very interesting couple of days for me. Since writing about my own experiences with sexual trauma my mind has been a bit all over the place. I felt a bit bad about using another person story and whole heatedly hoped that it didn’t seem like I was comparing myself to her, because I was not, my situation was no where close to hers and I’m certain our experiences the same.

As God would have it, I discovered an entry I wrote on my computer almost  a year ago, I don’t journal but for as long as I can remember when something is weighing me down I will write about it, because of this I have random word documents everywhere about everything you can think of. I read this particular one for the first time since it was written almost a year ago. When I read it, I heard God say it is finished, the chains are broken and you are set free.

This entry was all the battles I struggled with in my mind and heart, it’s basically my thought pattern, I don’t actually remember what was going on when I was writing it, other than I was sitting in the middle of my backyard and just typing what came through my head.

And I don’t know what this is about, but i feel proud when i read it, proud of who i am and my journey and what I’m doing with myself now…

Continue reading It is Finished…

Pretty Hurts

This is by far the most personal and hard post I ever had to do. I know I have to write it for no other reason than to let it out. I been sick to my stomach just thinking about these things.

With the release of Cyntoia Brown coming in next few days she’s been in the news again. And I have to say I thank God that she gets a second chance at life but mostly that her story is already impacting so many young life’s and will hopefully impact much more. Continue reading Pretty Hurts

Relationship lens

Few days ago I had a dream. Not a bad dream but it left me feeling some kinda way. In the dream one of my co-workers was planning a surprise for her partner ‘just because’ it was very sweet and just a scene out of a movie.

When I woke up I was feeling a bit uncomfortable about it, not at just the idea of dreaming about my co-workers but at the image of love the dream was showing me. Continue reading Relationship lens

The battle is not over, the venue has just changed

When I was growing up, I was surrounded by a lot of talk about demons and spiritual attacks. Full disclosure I used to always think that it’s just an exaggeration and would find logical reasons to explain what is going on….

So you can imagine how blown away I was as things start to happen around me that I can only describe as spiritual battles.

Continue reading The battle is not over, the venue has just changed

“You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds; and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.” ‭